Suddenly realizing what's Going on

I did really promise myself while making this blog that it won't be a blog about tragedies I'm going trough but It looks like It's going that way. No matter how much I avoid it I can't help but think of my BF and our strange relationship.

It's been ten days since he wen't away and I do really miss him, what keeps me awake in the middle of the night is the fact that he don't answer my call and he don't reply to my messages. I feel like I am nothing to him now that he is already on the verge of achieving his dreams.I don't really want to think about it but it just keep coming back into my head.

I miss him really bad it's making me crazy even more not to have communication with him. I use to feel so secured but now I feel so alone. I know we are really so far away from each other but I feel like he don't think about me at all.

BUT I'm not giving up! I still have faith in him. I trust him with all my heart that he won't just dump our five year relationship. I still trust him when he told me that he loves me and he will come back home to me.